second one of the year, third one is in july. i was thinking to myself how i hadn’t posted on here in a while, then i was thinking about something else and how i should post that since i really don’t post unless im thinking about something i would like to write down. but then i got to doing something else and i forgot about it and now 30 minutes later i haven’t the foggiest clue as to what it was. oh well.
the angle im sitting in relation to my keyboard makes all the letters look like they’re squashed, and by virtue of me looking at them from this angle, the world also.
oh well im sure it will eventually come back to me, or something else worth writing down.
what do you mean <insert here>…
ahhh… i see what you did there.
love tina fey.
i think im getting dumber or something. i find myself misspelling a lot of words laterly <—-. sometimes i jumble the letters up as im typing. not like a regular typo, like everything is scrambled. all the leeters are there, but they’re not in the right order. like music is one i do a lot. i sometimes type musci or msuci or something like that. i hope i don’t have a tumor or something. i think maybe im just rushing too much. or maybe because i learned to type fast by looking at the keyboard. even though i know where all the keys are and have learned to type without looking down at the keys for a while its not like everyone else types. i just use 2 fingers lol why am i rambling about how i type?
so far fast* put an asterisk since i still have been smoking a bong hit in the evenings and laced with tobacco which i hear is the worst way to do it. but the cancer prevention properties of marihuana are cancelling it out. or are they… tumor… lol lemme stop before i speak it into existence. to i have to say it with my mouth or is a thought enough? im gonna stop thinking about it too just to be on the safe side.
not as hard so far as i thought it would be to not eat meat…that’s what she said /trollface.
eating regular nigerian food minus the meat is about as vegetarian as it get’ plus its tasty that helps. but eating nigerian food all the time is boring and so is peanut butter and jelly and cereal all the time. so i downloaded some vegetarian cookbooks. yeah i said download, as in stole from the internet. much like hw you steal books from a libuary. i did that one on purpose. i think this is how we should spell library. libuary is closer to how you pronounce the word anyway. we should rewrite the english language and rewrite all the wurds that we think shuld be spell’d closer to the way they sound. of course we will leave certain words that sound alike just how they are. but the rest we can chain’j. but wait till after i ascend cuz im gonna have a shit fit i have have to read all these mispelled words. im set in my ways.
but i digress. not hard to not drink water during the day. but when i was my hands i wipe my face with my wet hands and sometimes i forget and i naturally suck the water from my hands as they pass my lips. is that gross? well fuck you, thats what i do lol. so aside from that i havent drank any water. im like a camel i store excess water in my fat.
anyway im going to go back to whatever i was doing before i was struck to write down that i think im something something misspelling words. or whatever.
who’s idea was it to spell it wednesday and not whensday or Wensday or even windsay. ok that made no sense.
i think im going through widthdrawal or is it withdrawal? i guess it was the second one. 2:09 am my alarm goes off at 5:44 since i just set it back an hour and im not even sleepy. been trying to sleep for like 2 hours now. what the shit. this would have been day3 of my fastin i mean it still is.
made it 2 days without eating any meat and not eating or drinking anything during the day. i asked my mom if muslims chew gum when they fast, she said nothing in their mouth and some even wont swallow their own spit.
luckily im not a muslim and i like to chew gum, so gum doesn’t break my fasting.
not that hard for the most part, i usually don’t eat often anyway sometimes i wont eat for days, im told thats bad. nigga don’t be hungry what you want me to do? plus sometimes i cant eat i feel nauseated.
i gotta learn some vegetarian recipes so i wont have to spend all 40 of my days fasting eating cereal, and peanut butter sandwiches.
and eggs. i looked up eggs and its not considered meat, but at the same time it feels like im cheating so no more eggs.
cream of wheat is pretty filing…
ok now im just rambling..
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gonna try and sleep without smoking weed, but i think i need some right now to help with my insomania…
and knowledge corrupts. reading, learning, thinking. the more i read the more i learn, the more i learn the more i think, the more i think the worse things get. can’t unsee, can’t unlearn, only way is forward.
in my latest adventure im going to fast for 40 days so i can get spiritually cleansed. whatever that means. but im out of shape, and im not getting any younger, look young as hell, but no im actually an old man. gonna stop smoking and drinking and everything, no meat, well im gonna try really hard on that no meat thing. it might be the most important part so if i have to eat granola and soy milk for a month then sobe it.
well i guess thats all for now. my back has a sharp tingling pain in it, least its not my fingers. hopefully that will go away in the next 42 days. i start monday after i get all drinky one last time tonight :)
today is march 1st, yesterday was february 29th, a day that only comes once every 4 years so everyone decided to celebrate it for some reason. i don’t know why since it was really just march 1st and today is really march 2nd. but humans have a need to feel special all the time for any reason i guess. why just 2 weeks ago it was national make everyone feel shitty for not being in a relationship day. aka valentines day. i did nothing special for anyone that day. it was just tuesday.
but back to this leap shit, time is arbitrary the earth never stops rotating, everyday is just that a day, and every night is just that a night. you could destroy every single clock and calendar and stop “measuring time” right now and nothing would change. nothing at all.
i got into a thing with a guy over muslims the other day. catholic priests rape children, orthodox jews like to suck blood from baby penises, and muslims are terrorists. uh, what? i don’t agree with any of these “practices” but the one about muslims is a very dangerous association as you may have observed if you have half a brain and were alive in the past 11 years. yeah america and any other suckers they could get to co-sign have been wholeheartedly exterminating brown people in the middle east, brown and black people in africa, and just about anyone anywhere who is the least bit of a muslim. but how can they get away with this you ask?
ill tell you after a quick smoke break. brought to you by the letter weed.
no not really ill tell you now. it is because we have been brainwashed into associating muslims with terrorists. in the days and weeks after 9/11 countless (i mean they can be and most probably were counted but im not gonna go look for that right now) muslims and middle eastern looking people in amurr’ka land of the free large fries with every order and the home of the atlanta braves baseball team, were beaten and had their properties vandalized and mosques were burned down. why? because muslims are terrorists duh. and if you have a problem with that then get the fuck out of amurr’ka cuz we ain’t got time for no pussy fagboys like you.
but i know muslims, you know muslims, you see them all the time, you just don’t know it because every muslim doesn’t fit a stereotype. all muslim women don’t wear burqas and all muslim men aren’t from the middle east or wear kufis, all muslims don’t speak arabic, they aren’t out to get ya. no one is going to stone you, or burn you alive or behead you or blow you up while you’re waiting in line at starbucks. this is called government propaganda. it’s all over the place you don’t even know you’re receiving it. its like aids. you watch your tv’s and hear your news where some trustworthy man in a suit and tie tells you that your government is the greatest and your country is the best and that we need to kill some more terrorists because they are bad. what did you expect? good news? why would they want you to feel good and relaxed and peaceful and calm?
you might get to feeling like you can relax, relaxation is the enemy. relaxation leads to thinking, thinking is terrible. you might start to think why you work that shitty job for very little pay, while your boss in contrast spends most of his time playing farmville and telling you shit to do. you might start wondering why all these muslims that are out to get you are even allowed in this country in the first place if they’re so dangerous? you might start to think that maybe the news is full of bullshit, and the government that passed this information to the news networks is full of shit too.
it’s only a short hop skip and a jump from thinking to doing. you might quit your job, decide you want to work for yourself, you might start to think you don’t like the way shit is going in this country. you might start to think you don’t like the way your tax dollars are being spent to exterminate muslims on the other side of the planet and you might stop paying taxes all together.
shit you might even go further than that, you might start to take action and speak up and tell others about how you feel and they might start to agree.
can’t have any of that though.
they might have to change the definition of a terrorist from just a muslim to muslims and anyone who supports their right to live free, might change it so that the definition of a terrorist are people just like me and you. people who don’t agree that muslims are terrorists, people who can see through the bullshit.
so you really have to ask yourself, am i going to help spread bullshit or am i going to help stop it?
/end rant. maybe i should have taken a smoke break none of that even makes sense.
haha aww
and out of breath from doing a bunch of situps and pushups and some new shit i made up where i pick up barbells from the floor and hoist them over my head before repeating.
i remember reading about how you shouldn’t do exercise before bed as it will make you restless, i guess they mean if you were sleepy already.
my tablet is working again. i don’t know what this is either i was just drawing lines.
then i turned off the lights and everything and i closed my eyes…
than about 5 minutes later i got up and vacuumed my floor cuz i was gonna do some situps till i got tired…
that was like 2am or so… now its 4am…not even remotely tired.
didn’t i do this already? i need to start tagging these so i can find them and remember what i did last time.
1:18 am, not feeling sleepy, been up since like 6:45 which is usually when my alarm goes off. prolly withdrawal from not having any nicotine in a few days. or maybe withdrawal from not having any fine quality medicinal marijuana? or maybe its just because im not following the routine my body is used to where i have a smoke and a pancake before i go to bed? or maybe im just really excited about this entrepreneur thing im going to in the morning. doubtful, don’t care fuck one about business and entrepreneuring shit, but my mom thinks i do which is why im going to this thing. would rather stay home and sleep but… meh i should prolly go outside, its been a couple days.
i am really itchy though, i think they call that the junkie shakes… or being sick. i dunno i don’t use drugs. drugs are bad mmmmkay.